“You know what I don’t understand? You have all these people telling you all the time how great you are, smart and funny and talented and all that, I mean endlessly, I’ve been telling you for years. So why don’t you believe it?”—David Nicholls, One Day
And maybe the leads would have flawless skin and better looking hair, absolutely dazzling and far better looking than we’ll ever really be. Maybe they’d burst out into song and dance instantly, creating a flash mob moving to the sounds of our favorite musical tracks or songs from pop stars we are secretly fans of. Maybe the setting would be more picturesque, perhaps in the streets of Hong Kong or New York or some other iconic venue, where even the gutters and ditches look breathtakingly gorgeous, and the sun always shines in the right places. Maybe the lines would be more quote worthy and a lot more poetic than the ones our minds churn out at a quarter to one in the morning when our exchanges end up in strings of “djfheirfuenfew” and “rfueofiefmew”. Maybe it’ll make our lives look a little more interesting and with a bit more depth and with stunning visuals but whatever the case, it’ll still be our story.
I’m reading all these things that you’ve told me and I could feel a smile forming on my face. Doesn’t really matter if you meant to make me smile or not, you just do. I’m happy right now and it’s largely cause of you.
Don’t turn your back on what you want again. Be brave enough to admit that this is what you want. Be brave enough to admit that this is what you’ve been working toward. Be brave enough to admit to yourself that you’ve done it. Be brave.
No more second guessing, guilt trips, or self-doubt. Take it. Savor it. Enjoy every minute of it.
This is what you want, now you have it. Own it. Believe it is yours and don’t let any thing or anyone let you think that you don’t really want this. Don’t even believe your negative self.
My friends are amazing people. They won’t leave me. They’ll support me all the way. They’ll laugh with me (and occasionally at me but hey). They put up with all my quirks and moods. They complete me. I love them all. They’re all wonderful and I appreciate them all very very much.