Some people’s personalities are so easy to fall in love with.
Hotarubi no Mori e (Into the Forest of Fireflies’ Light)
This 45 minute film is beautiful and sweet and heartbreaking all at the same time.
Its art is beautiful. Its plot is seemingly simple enough. Its characters are endearing and would definitely grow on you. Though it deals with some supernatural elements (mountain gods and spirits, anyone?), the emotions you’ll feel are as real as can be.
Hotarubi no Mori e is one of those films that hits you bad but since its so beautiful and touching, you can’t not see it again. Its story definitely stays with you for a while.
Photo credit: Nippon Cinema
Somewhere between the casual introductions, the many casual conversations, that one night out, and the confession, something went amiss.
The popular notion of lack of physical interaction leading to a decline in feelings toward a person may have initially been thought of as the reason for the lack of mutuality but I disagree. I think the feelings started waning earlier on, perhaps they might not ever been there at all.
The importance of open communication in any relationship cannot be stressed enough but the power of self-love cannot be denied. In fact, it should probably be a pre-requisite for romantic relationships specifically. Like they’ve said: You cannot save anyone, you can only love them.
Unless both people in a relationship can accept or work through their personal problems first, I don’t think it’ll work out. The idea of one person loving “more” than the other bothers me. How is that love if it isn’t fair?
Of course, this is where our own manifestations of our loving comes into play. Compatability and likemindedness have more bearing than one would think. If you’re the type of person who doesn’t feel comfortable with people doing favors for you, chances are you’ll feel awkward being given random presents that took a lot of time and effort to put together. That inner struggle you feel between being grateful but “undeserving” of such a gesture eats you up and eventually, you think it’s best to cut ties.
What a cruel twist of fate life turns out to be. Too much of a good thing can really get to you if you don’t know what to do with it.
If I Never Knew You by Mel Gibson and Judy Kuhn
During the last few weeks of classes (which are now officially over for the semester!), I was searching for some Disney love song playlists on YouTube to keep me company as I worked through the numerous late nights I went through, which is how I came across this gem.
The dialogue and lyrics are a little cheesy but I love this track.
I don’t understand how choosing to be asexual is a selfish act since “some people would want to like someone but just can’t.”
If you have your reasons for being “unable” to like anyone, then I can have my reasons for choosing not to develop feelings for anyone too.
I say they’re the same thing, except saying that you choose to be asexual is more active.
But meh, I don’t even know why I still have these conversations anymore. It’s not making anything any better.
Everything is going to be alright
"Are you okay?"
"I will be."
I feel like though I’m doing a lot, I don’t seem to be doing enough.
It feels as though the long hours I’ve spent chasing down dreams haven’t brought me any closer to achieving them. It’s like being delayed in an airport. You’re in the midst of a world of transit but you’re just sitting still.
The sensation of being stuck starts to bring in doubts and insecurities.
It shouldn’t be this way.
If I’m working towards a better, brighter future, why do I feel like all I’m doing is fizzling out?